In Memory of Nonnie

Today I learned that someone who has been dear to me for most of my life passed away. It was fairly sudden - even though she had been sick for a while, she didn't tell anyone until just a couple of days ago. By then she was so bad that there was really only enough time for family to gather and say their goodbyes. I'm glad that they had the opportunity to be with her, but I can only imagine how difficult it would be to only have a short amount of time to process what was happening.
I had known her for as long as I can remember, and considered her an aunt, even though we were only related by mutual love and not blood. I had unfortunately lost contact with her a few years ago, and never got around to making an effort to reconnect. Finally being able to talk to her when she was on her deathbed was a horrible reminder of how easy it is to take someone for granted. Even though I regret not trying to find her earlier, I am beyond grateful that I did have the opportunity to talk to her one last time. It was so bittersweet. I am overjoyed that I had the chance to tell her how much I loved her, but so sad knowing that I will never be able to see her again, or introduce her to my children.
Even though the pain I am feeling is absolutely not even close to what her family is going through, the lesson I have learned is a very real one. Too often we say we care about people, but rarely do we really take the time to show it. Too often we intend to keep in touch with people, but rarely do we pick up the phone or write a letter. Too often do we make plans to visit someday, but rarely do we make the effort to leave our homes and actually do it. Granted, there will always be people who drop out of your life, people you grow apart from. But the people who matter, the people who are important to you, deserve to be shown that you care.
We never know what life is going to bring us whether it be a major illness, or a tragic accident -I've had people leave my life because of both. That is why it is so important to never miss the opportunity to spend time with those we care about. That is why it is so important to never miss the opportunity to say, "I love you," or to give that one last hug or kiss. Sometimes we get so busy living life that we forget to think about how quickly it all can change.
So, to all my family and my dear friends: I'm sorry if I don't express how much you mean to me. There are so many of you who have made such a positive impact in my life and I want you to know that I care about you. Family who have been by my side through every triumph and every bad decision. Friends who have given me a good laugh and a listening ear. I hope that you never question how much I care about you, and I hope I always take the time to express my gratitude and joy that you are in my life. May we all do a much better job of letting the people in our lives know how much they mean to us.