It has been a long time since my last post, and I wish I was coming at this one with a better attitude. I am not looking forward to Christmas for the first time in a while. I think the fact that we have been living on just enough money to get by for such a long time now is really wearing me down. I know that I shouldn't complain because we still have it so much better than so many other people, but it is difficult sometimes. I am more concerned about the kids. I want to be able to do things with them and for them to make Christmas special and memorable, but I feel like we don't have the resources to do that.
In the big scheme of things, this one Christmas will not matter much in comparison to all the other Christmases we spend together, but I don't want my kids to be disappointed. I know in my heart they won't be, I know that I am the only one who really cares. But it is frustrating and I just needed to vent. Ok, rant over now. I at least feel a little better.
